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Axel/Roxas FST: Engines
And this is the last FST for the night.
...Unless there are other ones I've forgotten to upload on DW. Or should I not check that right now and try to upload more chapters of Awakenings? I have up to chapter 9, I think.
download the zip: mediafire.
individual songs uploaded upon request.
Engines
An Axel/Roxas FST
1. Engines - Snow Patrol
Only the faintest only the faintest glance buries you buries me
So fire your engine see if I give a damn, we'll be dust instantly
Caught in a jet stream caught in a gorgeous howl all the world lost in noise
Use me forever use me for rocket fuel, I'll be air I'll be fire
You say you love me like the silence of the turning Earth
You say you love me like the endless roar of modern life
You say you love me like the laughter and the kissed back tears
You say you love me like the past the now the coming years
I know I love you like the slivered gold of dying days
I know I love you like an ancient history brought to life
I know I love you like the sunlit water on your skin
I know I love you like the million times I never said
More of an Axel song than a Roxas song, but there's obviously mutual sentiment here.
2. Painted By Numbers - The Sounds
Too many things are missing, and there's a tear in my eye
It's not a question or an answer, but it will change your mind
We'll be the same tomorrow
'Cause we all been painted by numbers
We're dancin' as we borrow
You said it was love
I said I'd like you to be mine
I couldn't act like you, but I can love like you do
Between us there is something, I can't explain it to you
A Roxasy song.
3. So Deep - Ann Lee
Now if you leave me there's no way to stop you
if that's the way things have got to be
remember this - it's the love that I gave you
you'll try to say that you cared for me
Oh - if you leave me don't ever regret it
'cos there's no playing with destiny
if that's the way that your mind is made
I feel the sadness of knowing I failed you
but that won't change a decision made
An Axel song. Once Roxas has made a decision, Axel keeps trying to say that Roxas can't take it back.
4. Another Heart Calls - All-American Rejects
Axel: Do you remember when we didn't care?
Roxas: We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there
A: Do you remember you at all?
R: Yeah, I remember when we stole the night
Both: We'd lie awake but dream until the sun would wash the sky
R: Just as soon as I see you
I didn't lie
But didn't I tell you?
A: As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all
R: What can I do?
B: Say it's true
R: Or everything that matters breaks in two
B: Say it's true
R: I'll never ask for anyone but you
A: And I know that you want us
To figure it out
B: And God knows I do, too
R: What can I do?
B: Say it's true
R: I'll never ask for anyone but you
Axel sings the girl part in this one, and Roxas sings the boy part.
5. Sleeping With Ghosts - Placebo
It seems it's written
But we can't read between the line
Damn the government
Damn their killing
Damn their lies
Hush
It's okay
Dry your eyes
Dry your eyes
Soulmate dry your eyes
Dry your eyes
Soulmate dry your eyes
Cause soulmates never die
So very much Axel.
6. Do What You Have To Do - Sarah McLachlan
And fate has led you through it
You do what you have to do
Every moment marked
With apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
Trying to escape this desire
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
But I have the sense to recognize
That I don't know how
To let you go
A glowing ember
Burning hot
And burning slow
Deep within I'm shaken by the violence
Of existing for only you
Axel's post-Twilight Town AWOL desperation.
7. I Can I Will I Do - Barenaked Ladies
Friend, this shouldn't be the way things end
But then, a break is just around the bend.
And when you tell me as I leave
You're scared you'll never see my face again
Well, I'm not sure it's the truth
You don't think I can love you
But I can and I will and I do
Hey - it's hard for me to go away
Okay, I know it's not adult
But it's just as difficult for me to stay
Roxas is frustrated by a lot of what Axel does - including all the deception - but he knows better than to listen to Axel when he says that they can't feel.
8. Your Thesaurus Won't Help You Now - Paper Moon
This is easily the hardest thing I've ever had to do
I struggle over every word
But I think it's safe to say that I owe this much to you
I've gotten more than I deserve
I close my eyes and in my head I see you walk away
Panic washes over me
I know it could be different if I found something to say
But how can I possibly
Wrestle phrases from a frozen mind
Extract the necessary lines
to ensure continuance of what I've taken for granted all this time?
I'm usually more articulate
Why do words fail me now?
Just when I need them the most, words fail me
Now the ultimatum has been given
And I find myself so unprepared
To spill emotions that have remained undeclared
An Axel song. Because Roxas doesn't deal well with lying and excuses, and there is absolutely nothing Axel can say to make him stay.
9. Here I Am - John Nolan
Let's build something
Let's follow through on an idea
Regardless of its relevance
Its weight, or its meaning
No, we don't have much time
Let's leave something behind
If it's wrong or it's right
It's not ours to decide
Here I am, let's dance
Here I am, let's pretend
Here I am, let's start
Over and over again
A Roxas song, and partly a meditation on the Organization and Nobodies in general.
10. Is It Really So Strange? - The Smiths
Oh yes, you can kick me
And you can punch me
And you can break my face
But you won't change the way I feel
'Cause I love you
I left the South
I travelled North
I got confused - I killed a horse
I can't help the way I feel
And is it really so strange?
Oh, is it really so strange?
Oh, is it really so, really so strange?
I say no, you say yes
But you will change your mind
Axel's killing off coworkers left and right, and it's all for Roxas's sake.
11. True Love Waits (Live) - Radiohead
I'll drown my beliefs
To have you be in peace
Just don't leave, don't leave
And true love waits
In haunted attics
I'm not living
I'm just killing time
Your tiny hands
Your crazy kitten smile
Axel still can't keep Roxas from leaving, though, and Roxas's departure leaves Axel absolutely devastated.
12. Remember To Feel Real (Machine Shop Remix) - Armor For Sleep
So here's the truth
You were right all along
They were never my friends
I was living a lie
But I won't fall for it next time
You figured me out
Like a leaf in the wind
I try to find who I am
But wind up lost in the end
Sometimes it's hard to know what's real when you're not
Waste all your time with me
I know I'm a mess right now
Don't give up in me
I'd wait it out for you
Nothing's here for me
Nothing's here for you
Nothing's here for me
But you
And it takes Roxas quite a long time to realize that Twilight Town isn't real. A Roxas song.
13. Even The Losers - Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers
It was nearly summer, we sat on your roof
Yeah, we smoked cigarettes and we stared at the moon
I showed you stars you never could see
It couldn't have been that easy to forget about me
Time meant nothing, anything seemed real
Yeah, you kissed like fire and you made me feel
Like every word you said was meant to be
It couldn't have been that easy to forget about me
But it's too late. An Axel song.
14. I Will - The Beatles
Who knows how long I've loved you
You know I love you still
Will I wait a lonely lifetime
If you want me to, I will
For if I ever saw you
I didn't catch your name
But it never really mattered
I will always feel the same
Love you forever and forever
Love you with all my heart
Love you whenever we're together
Love you when we're apart
Still, none of all that stops Axel and Roxas from wanting another chance. A Roxas song.
15. Calling You - Blue October
There's something that I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you
You'll never take that away
And if I've said it a hundred times before
Expect a thousand more
You'll never take that away
Well expect me to be
Calling you to see
If you're OK when I'm not around
Asking "if you love me"
I love the way you make it sound
I thought that the world had lost it's sway
(It's so hard sometimes)
Then I fell in love with you
(Then came you)
And you took that away
(It's not so difficult
The world is not so difficult)
More of an Axel song than a Roxas song.
16. Light The Match - Mirah
I want to start a fire in your heart tonight
Oh, tell me, why do I so yearn to cause trouble?
I need you to be mine in the summertime
When the days are long and the nights are slow and sweet
But why do you turn, and shield your eyes?
Do I burn too brightly?
Oh, don't take my love lightly
For I mean every word
You flicker you amaze me, your lips illuminate me
I want your eyes to tell I'm your only flame
My glow, it will attract you
Though, my smoke will push you back until you call agian
Please, arsonist attack
Axel's utter fascination with Roxas, and how it changes him from just a regular Nobody to a man utterly devoted.
17. A Place In Time (Extended) - Amanda Abizaid
So long ago, Another life
I could feel your heart beat
It's not a dream, remember us
I can see it in your eyes
We'll find a place in time
A place in time beyond the sun
We'll find a place in time
A place in time to call our home
More waiting for the next life.
18. The Tension And The Terror - Straylight Run
All the boys voices cracking
Oh, the moaning half tones
Come summer time
We're all the same age here
All the tension and the terror
Thin limbed gorgeous green eyes smiling
And I'm going straight to hell
You take in everything with a certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need just keep me guessing please
So it comes down to me and you and
Whether we're supposed to or not we still will
We're so much better off than them
The first song was an Axel song, so the last song is a Roxas song. And despite all the wrong turns and betrayals drastic consequences, and chaos in between their first meeting and final parting (so far), Roxas and Axel were, are, and will always be together.
...Unless there are other ones I've forgotten to upload on DW. Or should I not check that right now and try to upload more chapters of Awakenings? I have up to chapter 9, I think.
download the zip: mediafire.
individual songs uploaded upon request.
Engines
An Axel/Roxas FST
1. Engines - Snow Patrol
Only the faintest only the faintest glance buries you buries me
So fire your engine see if I give a damn, we'll be dust instantly
Caught in a jet stream caught in a gorgeous howl all the world lost in noise
Use me forever use me for rocket fuel, I'll be air I'll be fire
You say you love me like the silence of the turning Earth
You say you love me like the endless roar of modern life
You say you love me like the laughter and the kissed back tears
You say you love me like the past the now the coming years
I know I love you like the slivered gold of dying days
I know I love you like an ancient history brought to life
I know I love you like the sunlit water on your skin
I know I love you like the million times I never said
More of an Axel song than a Roxas song, but there's obviously mutual sentiment here.
2. Painted By Numbers - The Sounds
Too many things are missing, and there's a tear in my eye
It's not a question or an answer, but it will change your mind
We'll be the same tomorrow
'Cause we all been painted by numbers
We're dancin' as we borrow
You said it was love
I said I'd like you to be mine
I couldn't act like you, but I can love like you do
Between us there is something, I can't explain it to you
A Roxasy song.
3. So Deep - Ann Lee
Now if you leave me there's no way to stop you
if that's the way things have got to be
remember this - it's the love that I gave you
you'll try to say that you cared for me
Oh - if you leave me don't ever regret it
'cos there's no playing with destiny
if that's the way that your mind is made
I feel the sadness of knowing I failed you
but that won't change a decision made
An Axel song. Once Roxas has made a decision, Axel keeps trying to say that Roxas can't take it back.
4. Another Heart Calls - All-American Rejects
Axel: Do you remember when we didn't care?
Roxas: We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there
A: Do you remember you at all?
R: Yeah, I remember when we stole the night
Both: We'd lie awake but dream until the sun would wash the sky
R: Just as soon as I see you
I didn't lie
But didn't I tell you?
A: As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all
R: What can I do?
B: Say it's true
R: Or everything that matters breaks in two
B: Say it's true
R: I'll never ask for anyone but you
A: And I know that you want us
To figure it out
B: And God knows I do, too
R: What can I do?
B: Say it's true
R: I'll never ask for anyone but you
Axel sings the girl part in this one, and Roxas sings the boy part.
5. Sleeping With Ghosts - Placebo
It seems it's written
But we can't read between the line
Damn the government
Damn their killing
Damn their lies
Hush
It's okay
Dry your eyes
Dry your eyes
Soulmate dry your eyes
Dry your eyes
Soulmate dry your eyes
Cause soulmates never die
So very much Axel.
6. Do What You Have To Do - Sarah McLachlan
And fate has led you through it
You do what you have to do
Every moment marked
With apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
Trying to escape this desire
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
But I have the sense to recognize
That I don't know how
To let you go
A glowing ember
Burning hot
And burning slow
Deep within I'm shaken by the violence
Of existing for only you
Axel's post-Twilight Town AWOL desperation.
7. I Can I Will I Do - Barenaked Ladies
Friend, this shouldn't be the way things end
But then, a break is just around the bend.
And when you tell me as I leave
You're scared you'll never see my face again
Well, I'm not sure it's the truth
You don't think I can love you
But I can and I will and I do
Hey - it's hard for me to go away
Okay, I know it's not adult
But it's just as difficult for me to stay
Roxas is frustrated by a lot of what Axel does - including all the deception - but he knows better than to listen to Axel when he says that they can't feel.
8. Your Thesaurus Won't Help You Now - Paper Moon
This is easily the hardest thing I've ever had to do
I struggle over every word
But I think it's safe to say that I owe this much to you
I've gotten more than I deserve
I close my eyes and in my head I see you walk away
Panic washes over me
I know it could be different if I found something to say
But how can I possibly
Wrestle phrases from a frozen mind
Extract the necessary lines
to ensure continuance of what I've taken for granted all this time?
I'm usually more articulate
Why do words fail me now?
Just when I need them the most, words fail me
Now the ultimatum has been given
And I find myself so unprepared
To spill emotions that have remained undeclared
An Axel song. Because Roxas doesn't deal well with lying and excuses, and there is absolutely nothing Axel can say to make him stay.
9. Here I Am - John Nolan
Let's build something
Let's follow through on an idea
Regardless of its relevance
Its weight, or its meaning
No, we don't have much time
Let's leave something behind
If it's wrong or it's right
It's not ours to decide
Here I am, let's dance
Here I am, let's pretend
Here I am, let's start
Over and over again
A Roxas song, and partly a meditation on the Organization and Nobodies in general.
10. Is It Really So Strange? - The Smiths
Oh yes, you can kick me
And you can punch me
And you can break my face
But you won't change the way I feel
'Cause I love you
I left the South
I travelled North
I got confused - I killed a horse
I can't help the way I feel
And is it really so strange?
Oh, is it really so strange?
Oh, is it really so, really so strange?
I say no, you say yes
But you will change your mind
Axel's killing off coworkers left and right, and it's all for Roxas's sake.
11. True Love Waits (Live) - Radiohead
I'll drown my beliefs
To have you be in peace
Just don't leave, don't leave
And true love waits
In haunted attics
I'm not living
I'm just killing time
Your tiny hands
Your crazy kitten smile
Axel still can't keep Roxas from leaving, though, and Roxas's departure leaves Axel absolutely devastated.
12. Remember To Feel Real (Machine Shop Remix) - Armor For Sleep
So here's the truth
You were right all along
They were never my friends
I was living a lie
But I won't fall for it next time
You figured me out
Like a leaf in the wind
I try to find who I am
But wind up lost in the end
Sometimes it's hard to know what's real when you're not
Waste all your time with me
I know I'm a mess right now
Don't give up in me
I'd wait it out for you
Nothing's here for me
Nothing's here for you
Nothing's here for me
But you
And it takes Roxas quite a long time to realize that Twilight Town isn't real. A Roxas song.
13. Even The Losers - Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers
It was nearly summer, we sat on your roof
Yeah, we smoked cigarettes and we stared at the moon
I showed you stars you never could see
It couldn't have been that easy to forget about me
Time meant nothing, anything seemed real
Yeah, you kissed like fire and you made me feel
Like every word you said was meant to be
It couldn't have been that easy to forget about me
But it's too late. An Axel song.
14. I Will - The Beatles
Who knows how long I've loved you
You know I love you still
Will I wait a lonely lifetime
If you want me to, I will
For if I ever saw you
I didn't catch your name
But it never really mattered
I will always feel the same
Love you forever and forever
Love you with all my heart
Love you whenever we're together
Love you when we're apart
Still, none of all that stops Axel and Roxas from wanting another chance. A Roxas song.
15. Calling You - Blue October
There's something that I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you
You'll never take that away
And if I've said it a hundred times before
Expect a thousand more
You'll never take that away
Well expect me to be
Calling you to see
If you're OK when I'm not around
Asking "if you love me"
I love the way you make it sound
I thought that the world had lost it's sway
(It's so hard sometimes)
Then I fell in love with you
(Then came you)
And you took that away
(It's not so difficult
The world is not so difficult)
More of an Axel song than a Roxas song.
16. Light The Match - Mirah
I want to start a fire in your heart tonight
Oh, tell me, why do I so yearn to cause trouble?
I need you to be mine in the summertime
When the days are long and the nights are slow and sweet
But why do you turn, and shield your eyes?
Do I burn too brightly?
Oh, don't take my love lightly
For I mean every word
You flicker you amaze me, your lips illuminate me
I want your eyes to tell I'm your only flame
My glow, it will attract you
Though, my smoke will push you back until you call agian
Please, arsonist attack
Axel's utter fascination with Roxas, and how it changes him from just a regular Nobody to a man utterly devoted.
17. A Place In Time (Extended) - Amanda Abizaid
So long ago, Another life
I could feel your heart beat
It's not a dream, remember us
I can see it in your eyes
We'll find a place in time
A place in time beyond the sun
We'll find a place in time
A place in time to call our home
More waiting for the next life.
18. The Tension And The Terror - Straylight Run
All the boys voices cracking
Oh, the moaning half tones
Come summer time
We're all the same age here
All the tension and the terror
Thin limbed gorgeous green eyes smiling
And I'm going straight to hell
You take in everything with a certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need just keep me guessing please
So it comes down to me and you and
Whether we're supposed to or not we still will
We're so much better off than them
The first song was an Axel song, so the last song is a Roxas song. And despite all the wrong turns and betrayals drastic consequences, and chaos in between their first meeting and final parting (so far), Roxas and Axel were, are, and will always be together.