KH FST: Whisper Soundtrack
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way2dawnHere's the soundtrack to Whisper :)
For those who haven't read the fic yet, be aware that quotes from the fic will be in the song explanations.
download zip [with coverart] here :)
Front coverart by Ammut. Back coverart by idk.
Whisper Soundtrack
1. In Between Days - The Cure
Yesterday I got so old
I felt like I could die
Yesterday I got so old
It made me want to cry
Go on go on
Just walk away
Go on go on
Your choice is made
Go on go on
And disappear
Go on go on
Away from here
And I know I was wrong
When I said it was true
That it couldn't be me and be her
Inbetween without you
Without you
Yesterday I got so scared
I shivered like a child
Yesterday away from you
It froze me deep inside
Come back come back
Don't walk away
Come back come back
Come back today
Come back come back
Why can't you see?
Come back come back
Come back to me
The ocean rushes, and Riku stays standing for a few moments more, but the breeze off the sea has the lingering scent of darkness that’s seemed to seep into almost everything here, and when it rushes in through Riku’s nostrils, he’s too dizzy to stand up anymore. His knees hit the black sand and his fingers dig into the fine grit; Sora says something from where he is over near the water, but Riku can’t understand it over the roar of the ocean in his ears and the pulsing of the blood in his side. It’s only when he hears Sora saying his name that the noise dulls and when he takes a deep breath that he can think again. Out of this world and the Realm of Light, this is the world that wanted him more.
“This world is perfect for me,” he can’t help but let out, pushing up on his arms so that he’s kneeling again. And if Sora would just stay here with him, that would be alright. For a second, he’s not sure if Sora’s going to agree, that maybe it’s just Riku that would be willing to stay here, in this darkness, but Sora does agree to stay with him and carries him to the water, so maybe that’s… not so bad, after all.
2. Life Is Beautiful - Vega4
When you run into my arms
We steal a perfect moment
Let the monsters see you smile
Let them see you smiling
Do I hold you too tightly?
When will the hurt kick in?
Life is beautiful, but it's complicated
We barely make it
We don't need to understand
There are miracles, miracles
Yeah, life is beautiful
Our hearts, they beat and break
When you run away from harm
Will you run back into my arms
Like you did when you were young?
Will you come back to me?
They talk of friends and imitations, and Riku can barely put into words the feeling he gets when he realizes that yes, things really are okay between him and Sora again. After everything that’s happened, it’s such a relief to have the comfortable talking, the companionable silence that Riku has barely experienced since they left home. He watches Sora gaze into the horizon, his eternally spiky hair moving slightly with the soft breeze and framing his face, and there's a seriousness gained from battles that wasn't present on the shore at home, but he's still so undeniably Sora that it fills Riku with a strange, secret sense of elation.
3. Turpentine Chaser - Dashboard Confessional
This paint has been tasting of lead
And the chips will fall as they may
But it's not just my finish that's peeling
And it's not alone fleeing these walls
This turpentine chaser's got kick
And the rag that it's soaked in is rich
But the fumes aid the pace of my cleaning
And as soon as I'm done I am gone
Now we're saying aloud
The things we've declared in our silence
Riku can’t stop himself from inhaling sharply when the cloth touches his side, and Sora sees it before he has time to put a neutral expression back on his face. “Oh, does that sting really bad?”
“It’s okay,” Riku replies, voice tight, “just keep going.” Sora holds Riku’s hand with the free one that isn’t using the cloth, and then gives it a good squeeze when Riku instinctively grips it tightly.
...
It’s… partly a weird sensation, since the Elixir is cool to the touch and slightly tingling, but Sora’s fingers are warm and softly moving across his skin, and Riku really tries to keep his breathing at the normal pace for someone who should probably not be smiling as much as he wants to. “Oh, it’s… is it actually working?” he asks again because he can’t think of anything else intelligent to say right now.
“Yeah,” Sora responds, pausing slightly to get more of the Elixir onto Riku’s side, “there was this red stuff in there. I couldn’t tell earlier because I thought it was just blood, but it was trying to eat your skin, I think.” That sounds unpleasant, but Riku just nods because Sora’s still got his fingers all over Riku’s side.
4. The Boy Who Could Explode - Matthew Good
I won't wait for you to brave
More than one way to be okay
What are you thinking?
What are you thinking?
What are you thinking?
Oh, what are you thinking?
This my head and yours, just metaphors
I guess we'll always end up more
Go explode
What time is it that you're waiting for?
What time is it that you're waiting for?
We could waste this whole town
Wipe the knives and go to ground
This musical ride, these sheets of rain
For all their lies and all their games
Just being alive don't get you saved
If there's more than one way to be okay
“Oh, you’re probably tired, aren’t you?” Sora asks, but that just makes Riku smile a little wider. Well, that’s definitely a good thing, so it’s nice to know that Riku’s not annoyed at him for keeping him up.
“It’s okay,” Riku responds, and then his smile turns more playful. “We got a lot of things done today, didn’t we?” And now Riku’s just teasing, so he can’t be that tir- …Oh right, they saved the worlds. Sora’d been paying so much attention to trying to get Riku to heal that he’d almost forgotten about that.
...
Tilting his head to look up at Riku, the older teen doesn’t say anything for a few seconds, just has that small, contented, subtle smile on again, and Sora doesn’t know what to think about that because there are suddenly about a billion butterflies in his stomach that came from out of who-knows-where. Sora has no idea what all this is supposed to mean, and in the stillness, Riku doesn’t seem like he’s going to explain.
“Goodnight,” Riku says eventually, quiet, almost like a whisper, and with just a little bit of caution that he’s probably trying to hide. The butterflies are doing acrobatic butterfly somersaults, and Sora doesn’t know why Riku would have a reason to be cautious because he can’t possibly be as nervous or confused as Sora is right now.
5. Jigsaw - Tsunami Bomb
Watched the people
Acted like we knew what they were up to
They could never have as much fun as we do together
Today was the best day
I realized what I wanted to say:
'Come what may, I'll be there for you'
Stayed up till sunrise-
No big surprise, it's a marathon
I might be gone soon, but please believe I hold you up to the highest degree
“…I don’t regret it, you know,” he finds himself saying. And it’s true; he didn’t even waste time thinking about what to do, just acted on instinct because Sora needs help and I need to make sure Sora’s okay and nothing else mattered after that. This comment seems to surprise Sora a little because his eyes get wide, focusing intently on Riku now, and his mouth opens slightly.
“…Oh,” Sora says, after a beat. He blinks slowly, like he’s just thought of something, but doesn’t say anything else, and Riku’s not really sure what’s going through the brunet’s head right now.
...
“…I didn’t realize it for the longest time myself,” Sora explains, darting a glance back down, then bringing it up quickly to look intently into Riku’s eyes, “but it’s okay because I think I’ve been in love with you for a very long time.”
6. Extraordinary Ways - Conjure One
On an ordinary day
The extraordinary way
You take what I can give and you treasure it
On an ordinary day
The extraordinary way
You turn to me and say, I believe in this
That makes me lucky
God, I'm lucky, so much luckier than I ever thought I'd be
'Cause what I have (what I have)
Means so very little to this world
A promise that I kept and a bridge that I saved before it burned
The sacrifice that I made
Brought me to my knees
A choice that cost me everything and set somebody else free
But what I have
Is the value that you see in these things
And everytime I forget those things you bring them right back to me
And your eyes
Taking in everything I am
And your body and soul and the way that you know
How I treasure you
Riku isn’t sure at this point if he’s started breathing again yet because he’s so focused on Sora that there isn’t a single other thought in his head besides the words Sora’s just said. “So it’s okay, right?” Riku thinks his vocal cords stopped working properly a while ago.
“…Sora?” he asks, hesitantly, and he doesn’t know why he can’t spit out more than one word at a time. Sora, though, finally smiles again and, leaning forward just slightly, lightly presses his lips against Riku’s own.
7. Inevitable - Anberlin
Do you remember when we were just kids
And cardboard boxes took us miles from what we would miss
Schoolyard conversations taken to heart
And laughter took the place of everything we knew we were not
I wanna break every clock
The hands of time could never move again
We could stay in this moment (stay in this moment)
For the rest of our lives
I wanna be your last, first kiss
That you'll ever have
I wanna be your last, first kiss
Amazing how life turns out the way that it does
We end up hurting the worst, the only ones we really love
I wanna be your last, first love (that you'll ever have)
Till you're lying here beside me with arms and eyes open wide
I wanna be your last, first kiss for all time
“Okay?” Sora asks one more time.
“Yeah,” Riku replies, smiling a bit himself, and this time when Sora leans forward, Riku meets him halfway.
8. Never Saw Blue (Full Length Drums Mix) - Hayley Westenra
Secret thoughts, you said aloud,
We watched the faces in the clouds
Until the clouds have blown away
Were we ever somewhere else?
You know, it's hard to say
I never saw blue like that before
Across the sky, around the world
You're giving me all you have and more
No one else has ever shown me how
To see the world the way I see it now
Oh I, I never saw blue like that
Some things are the way they are
And words just can't explain
It feels like now, it feels always
And it feels like coming home
“It’s… okay, there’s the top,” Sora starts to trace an outline of a figure, “and then it goes this way, and then down, and then that’s the bottom…” The figure slowly takes shape, and Riku feels his jaw start to drop open. “…And then it goes back up this way, and then it’s kind of squiggly there, and then it goes that way back up to the top again.”
Sora’s got his own constellation now. Wow.
...
And Sora says regular like all this is normal for him, and… Riku realizes that it probably is, and that’s kind of amazing, too. “So…” Sora nudges him with his shoulder, and Riku turns his gaze away from the constellation to look at the genuine article, “pretty cool, huh?”
9. Paper Cuts - The Boy Least Likely To
I bruise like a peach
I mumble when I speak
I'm in the gutter
Lookin' at the stars
I've always been in love with you
I look tough enough
But if you hold me up to the light
You can see my broken heart
I've always been in love with you
They're just paper cuts
I'll sellotape them up
And bandage them with cotton wool and glue
Paper cuts
I shouldn't beat myself up
Over little things the way I do
Just be careful when you shine
Because if you throw a light
On something magical
It disappears
I bruise like a peach
I mumble when I speak
I'm in the gutter
Lookin' at my scars
I've always been in love with you
Riku suddenly feels a little nervous himself.
“Sora, I…” He gradually covers the hand running along his boxers with his own and pauses its motion because that’s making it very difficult to think and he doesn’t know what to say to not make Sora upset at him.
“I really want you to,” Sora repeats, in a quiet voice, looking up at him solemnly, and he’s getting upset anyway because Riku’s not very good at hiding his hesitation.
“…I don’t want to hurt you,” Riku mumbles eventually, looking down because it’s kind of painful to see Sora’s face when he knows it’s his fault the brunet’s feeling so upset, and his voice has gone to a whisper, like maybe if he says it quietly enough, Sora might not hear it.
10. Gorecki - Lamb
If I should die this very moment
I wouldn't fear
For I've never known completeness
Like being here
Wrapped in the warmth of you
Loving every breath of you
Still my heart this moment
Or it might burst
Could we stay right here
Until the end of time until the earth stops turning
Wanna love you until the seas run dry
I've found the one I've waited for
Here is true peace
Here my heart knows calm
Safe in your soul
Bathed in your sighs
All I've known
All I've done
All I've felt was leading to this
“It’s okay,” Sora says with an easy smile, looking up at Riku once he’s coaxed them horizontal, a hand on Riku’s cheek and eyes bluer than Riku’s ever seen them, “I trust you.” It’s so effortless, the way he says it.
Riku goes into an absolute standstill. He doesn’t do a single thing besides look at Sora in that moment, at Sora looking at him with complete certainty; he doesn’t move, doesn’t speak, doesn’t breathe, doesn’t think anything, just lets Sora’s words sink into him for one long, sustained second. And then he takes a stuttering inhale, and has to duck his head into the crook of Sora’s neck when time starts flowing normally again because he thinks he’s been waiting his whole life and more for this and everything inside of him is pulling him towards Sora at an incomprehensible pace and he has to divert it somehow, or Sora is never going to say something like that ever again.
11. One More Thing - Richard Gibbs
instrumental
"Thank you," he whispers, throat choked, barely able to hear his own words over the thumping in his ears. I love you, he mouths into the juncture where Sora’s neck meets his collarbone. But Sora wraps his arms tight around him, so Riku’s glad to know he got both messages.
...
“We’ll go together.”
“Yeah.”
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So... you guys like?
For those who haven't read the fic yet, be aware that quotes from the fic will be in the song explanations.
download zip [with coverart] here :)
Front coverart by Ammut. Back coverart by idk.
Whisper Soundtrack
1. In Between Days - The Cure
Yesterday I got so old
I felt like I could die
Yesterday I got so old
It made me want to cry
Go on go on
Just walk away
Go on go on
Your choice is made
Go on go on
And disappear
Go on go on
Away from here
And I know I was wrong
When I said it was true
That it couldn't be me and be her
Inbetween without you
Without you
Yesterday I got so scared
I shivered like a child
Yesterday away from you
It froze me deep inside
Come back come back
Don't walk away
Come back come back
Come back today
Come back come back
Why can't you see?
Come back come back
Come back to me
The ocean rushes, and Riku stays standing for a few moments more, but the breeze off the sea has the lingering scent of darkness that’s seemed to seep into almost everything here, and when it rushes in through Riku’s nostrils, he’s too dizzy to stand up anymore. His knees hit the black sand and his fingers dig into the fine grit; Sora says something from where he is over near the water, but Riku can’t understand it over the roar of the ocean in his ears and the pulsing of the blood in his side. It’s only when he hears Sora saying his name that the noise dulls and when he takes a deep breath that he can think again. Out of this world and the Realm of Light, this is the world that wanted him more.
“This world is perfect for me,” he can’t help but let out, pushing up on his arms so that he’s kneeling again. And if Sora would just stay here with him, that would be alright. For a second, he’s not sure if Sora’s going to agree, that maybe it’s just Riku that would be willing to stay here, in this darkness, but Sora does agree to stay with him and carries him to the water, so maybe that’s… not so bad, after all.
2. Life Is Beautiful - Vega4
When you run into my arms
We steal a perfect moment
Let the monsters see you smile
Let them see you smiling
Do I hold you too tightly?
When will the hurt kick in?
Life is beautiful, but it's complicated
We barely make it
We don't need to understand
There are miracles, miracles
Yeah, life is beautiful
Our hearts, they beat and break
When you run away from harm
Will you run back into my arms
Like you did when you were young?
Will you come back to me?
They talk of friends and imitations, and Riku can barely put into words the feeling he gets when he realizes that yes, things really are okay between him and Sora again. After everything that’s happened, it’s such a relief to have the comfortable talking, the companionable silence that Riku has barely experienced since they left home. He watches Sora gaze into the horizon, his eternally spiky hair moving slightly with the soft breeze and framing his face, and there's a seriousness gained from battles that wasn't present on the shore at home, but he's still so undeniably Sora that it fills Riku with a strange, secret sense of elation.
3. Turpentine Chaser - Dashboard Confessional
This paint has been tasting of lead
And the chips will fall as they may
But it's not just my finish that's peeling
And it's not alone fleeing these walls
This turpentine chaser's got kick
And the rag that it's soaked in is rich
But the fumes aid the pace of my cleaning
And as soon as I'm done I am gone
Now we're saying aloud
The things we've declared in our silence
Riku can’t stop himself from inhaling sharply when the cloth touches his side, and Sora sees it before he has time to put a neutral expression back on his face. “Oh, does that sting really bad?”
“It’s okay,” Riku replies, voice tight, “just keep going.” Sora holds Riku’s hand with the free one that isn’t using the cloth, and then gives it a good squeeze when Riku instinctively grips it tightly.
...
It’s… partly a weird sensation, since the Elixir is cool to the touch and slightly tingling, but Sora’s fingers are warm and softly moving across his skin, and Riku really tries to keep his breathing at the normal pace for someone who should probably not be smiling as much as he wants to. “Oh, it’s… is it actually working?” he asks again because he can’t think of anything else intelligent to say right now.
“Yeah,” Sora responds, pausing slightly to get more of the Elixir onto Riku’s side, “there was this red stuff in there. I couldn’t tell earlier because I thought it was just blood, but it was trying to eat your skin, I think.” That sounds unpleasant, but Riku just nods because Sora’s still got his fingers all over Riku’s side.
4. The Boy Who Could Explode - Matthew Good
I won't wait for you to brave
More than one way to be okay
What are you thinking?
What are you thinking?
What are you thinking?
Oh, what are you thinking?
This my head and yours, just metaphors
I guess we'll always end up more
Go explode
What time is it that you're waiting for?
What time is it that you're waiting for?
We could waste this whole town
Wipe the knives and go to ground
This musical ride, these sheets of rain
For all their lies and all their games
Just being alive don't get you saved
If there's more than one way to be okay
“Oh, you’re probably tired, aren’t you?” Sora asks, but that just makes Riku smile a little wider. Well, that’s definitely a good thing, so it’s nice to know that Riku’s not annoyed at him for keeping him up.
“It’s okay,” Riku responds, and then his smile turns more playful. “We got a lot of things done today, didn’t we?” And now Riku’s just teasing, so he can’t be that tir- …Oh right, they saved the worlds. Sora’d been paying so much attention to trying to get Riku to heal that he’d almost forgotten about that.
...
Tilting his head to look up at Riku, the older teen doesn’t say anything for a few seconds, just has that small, contented, subtle smile on again, and Sora doesn’t know what to think about that because there are suddenly about a billion butterflies in his stomach that came from out of who-knows-where. Sora has no idea what all this is supposed to mean, and in the stillness, Riku doesn’t seem like he’s going to explain.
“Goodnight,” Riku says eventually, quiet, almost like a whisper, and with just a little bit of caution that he’s probably trying to hide. The butterflies are doing acrobatic butterfly somersaults, and Sora doesn’t know why Riku would have a reason to be cautious because he can’t possibly be as nervous or confused as Sora is right now.
5. Jigsaw - Tsunami Bomb
Watched the people
Acted like we knew what they were up to
They could never have as much fun as we do together
Today was the best day
I realized what I wanted to say:
'Come what may, I'll be there for you'
Stayed up till sunrise-
No big surprise, it's a marathon
I might be gone soon, but please believe I hold you up to the highest degree
“…I don’t regret it, you know,” he finds himself saying. And it’s true; he didn’t even waste time thinking about what to do, just acted on instinct because Sora needs help and I need to make sure Sora’s okay and nothing else mattered after that. This comment seems to surprise Sora a little because his eyes get wide, focusing intently on Riku now, and his mouth opens slightly.
“…Oh,” Sora says, after a beat. He blinks slowly, like he’s just thought of something, but doesn’t say anything else, and Riku’s not really sure what’s going through the brunet’s head right now.
...
“…I didn’t realize it for the longest time myself,” Sora explains, darting a glance back down, then bringing it up quickly to look intently into Riku’s eyes, “but it’s okay because I think I’ve been in love with you for a very long time.”
6. Extraordinary Ways - Conjure One
On an ordinary day
The extraordinary way
You take what I can give and you treasure it
On an ordinary day
The extraordinary way
You turn to me and say, I believe in this
That makes me lucky
God, I'm lucky, so much luckier than I ever thought I'd be
'Cause what I have (what I have)
Means so very little to this world
A promise that I kept and a bridge that I saved before it burned
The sacrifice that I made
Brought me to my knees
A choice that cost me everything and set somebody else free
But what I have
Is the value that you see in these things
And everytime I forget those things you bring them right back to me
And your eyes
Taking in everything I am
And your body and soul and the way that you know
How I treasure you
Riku isn’t sure at this point if he’s started breathing again yet because he’s so focused on Sora that there isn’t a single other thought in his head besides the words Sora’s just said. “So it’s okay, right?” Riku thinks his vocal cords stopped working properly a while ago.
“…Sora?” he asks, hesitantly, and he doesn’t know why he can’t spit out more than one word at a time. Sora, though, finally smiles again and, leaning forward just slightly, lightly presses his lips against Riku’s own.
7. Inevitable - Anberlin
Do you remember when we were just kids
And cardboard boxes took us miles from what we would miss
Schoolyard conversations taken to heart
And laughter took the place of everything we knew we were not
I wanna break every clock
The hands of time could never move again
We could stay in this moment (stay in this moment)
For the rest of our lives
I wanna be your last, first kiss
That you'll ever have
I wanna be your last, first kiss
Amazing how life turns out the way that it does
We end up hurting the worst, the only ones we really love
I wanna be your last, first love (that you'll ever have)
Till you're lying here beside me with arms and eyes open wide
I wanna be your last, first kiss for all time
“Okay?” Sora asks one more time.
“Yeah,” Riku replies, smiling a bit himself, and this time when Sora leans forward, Riku meets him halfway.
8. Never Saw Blue (Full Length Drums Mix) - Hayley Westenra
Secret thoughts, you said aloud,
We watched the faces in the clouds
Until the clouds have blown away
Were we ever somewhere else?
You know, it's hard to say
I never saw blue like that before
Across the sky, around the world
You're giving me all you have and more
No one else has ever shown me how
To see the world the way I see it now
Oh I, I never saw blue like that
Some things are the way they are
And words just can't explain
It feels like now, it feels always
And it feels like coming home
“It’s… okay, there’s the top,” Sora starts to trace an outline of a figure, “and then it goes this way, and then down, and then that’s the bottom…” The figure slowly takes shape, and Riku feels his jaw start to drop open. “…And then it goes back up this way, and then it’s kind of squiggly there, and then it goes that way back up to the top again.”
Sora’s got his own constellation now. Wow.
...
And Sora says regular like all this is normal for him, and… Riku realizes that it probably is, and that’s kind of amazing, too. “So…” Sora nudges him with his shoulder, and Riku turns his gaze away from the constellation to look at the genuine article, “pretty cool, huh?”
9. Paper Cuts - The Boy Least Likely To
I bruise like a peach
I mumble when I speak
I'm in the gutter
Lookin' at the stars
I've always been in love with you
I look tough enough
But if you hold me up to the light
You can see my broken heart
I've always been in love with you
They're just paper cuts
I'll sellotape them up
And bandage them with cotton wool and glue
Paper cuts
I shouldn't beat myself up
Over little things the way I do
Just be careful when you shine
Because if you throw a light
On something magical
It disappears
I bruise like a peach
I mumble when I speak
I'm in the gutter
Lookin' at my scars
I've always been in love with you
Riku suddenly feels a little nervous himself.
“Sora, I…” He gradually covers the hand running along his boxers with his own and pauses its motion because that’s making it very difficult to think and he doesn’t know what to say to not make Sora upset at him.
“I really want you to,” Sora repeats, in a quiet voice, looking up at him solemnly, and he’s getting upset anyway because Riku’s not very good at hiding his hesitation.
“…I don’t want to hurt you,” Riku mumbles eventually, looking down because it’s kind of painful to see Sora’s face when he knows it’s his fault the brunet’s feeling so upset, and his voice has gone to a whisper, like maybe if he says it quietly enough, Sora might not hear it.
10. Gorecki - Lamb
If I should die this very moment
I wouldn't fear
For I've never known completeness
Like being here
Wrapped in the warmth of you
Loving every breath of you
Still my heart this moment
Or it might burst
Could we stay right here
Until the end of time until the earth stops turning
Wanna love you until the seas run dry
I've found the one I've waited for
Here is true peace
Here my heart knows calm
Safe in your soul
Bathed in your sighs
All I've known
All I've done
All I've felt was leading to this
“It’s okay,” Sora says with an easy smile, looking up at Riku once he’s coaxed them horizontal, a hand on Riku’s cheek and eyes bluer than Riku’s ever seen them, “I trust you.” It’s so effortless, the way he says it.
Riku goes into an absolute standstill. He doesn’t do a single thing besides look at Sora in that moment, at Sora looking at him with complete certainty; he doesn’t move, doesn’t speak, doesn’t breathe, doesn’t think anything, just lets Sora’s words sink into him for one long, sustained second. And then he takes a stuttering inhale, and has to duck his head into the crook of Sora’s neck when time starts flowing normally again because he thinks he’s been waiting his whole life and more for this and everything inside of him is pulling him towards Sora at an incomprehensible pace and he has to divert it somehow, or Sora is never going to say something like that ever again.
11. One More Thing - Richard Gibbs
instrumental
"Thank you," he whispers, throat choked, barely able to hear his own words over the thumping in his ears. I love you, he mouths into the juncture where Sora’s neck meets his collarbone. But Sora wraps his arms tight around him, so Riku’s glad to know he got both messages.
...
“We’ll go together.”
“Yeah.”
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